To be honest, it’s not always easy to go to gym every single day. Sometimes things happen in your life and you might feel down and in the dumps. When you feel down, the last thing you want to do is go to the gym. Sometimes it’s just easier to stay at home, buy a tub of ice-cream and eat all your feelings. That’s how I often feel. For the last few weeks I’ve been eating too many sugary foods, so I’ve decided to tone it down a bit and cut down on wheat and sugar for two weeks.
But… I’ve also had to make a really hard decision work wise that effected my personal life. I had a lot of feelings that I had to deal with while making my decision. This meant that although I’m generally not a fan of chocolates and bread these were the only things I craved constantly along with my new eating plan. Bearing in mind that I’ve only been cutting out sugar for 2 days so far, I’ve already had a snickers bar, Baskin and Robbins ice-cream, Oreo Cookies and Peppero sticks.
So how do you stay motivated? When it comes to your diet, just begin from the beginning. So I’ve eaten all that shit today, but tomorrow I’ll start afresh. It’s all about mindset, you have to be strict and not allow yourself to fumble. If you do eat something you shouldn’t have, eat clean again at your next meal and keep eating clean. We all make mistakes. As long as you don’t keep making mistakes you’ll be okay.
One of the biggest struggles I had to go through lasted about 2 years. We were living in a new country, we didn’t have any friends. Everything was new and we couldn’t talk with anyone. Our families didn’t know what we were going through because they haven’t been through the same kind of thing. I’ve been ‘dieting’ on and off again, never really sticking to anything. I’ve also been going to gym intermittently but not really taking it serious.
Then in the beginning of this year we went back home for a month and I asked my mother in law to take a picture of me. ( I was pulling my stomach in here)
When I saw the picture I was really upset with myself for letting myself go. My stomach was protruding, my legs looked huge and none of my old jeans fit me anymore. Its not that I was fat, I just felt uncomfortable in my own skin. And the worse is, I didn’t even realise what I’ve done to myself. I use to have muscles in my arms and legs and all of that has dissipated. I’ve let my feelings show on my hips and stomach. While I was there I decided that I would go back to gym as soon as I got back to Korea and try and eat cleaner.
Since I’ve been back I haven’t allowed myself to slack (too much). When I’m tired in the morning after the previous day’s workout I assess whether skipping a day would really benefit me. For example skipping on a Wednesday would be pointless for me because I’ve only been training 2 days in a row. That’s not really a reason to skip just yet. I have to workout for at least 4 days in a row before I could allow myself to skip. Usually by then I feel much better and just keep going. I also allow myself to rest on a Sunday so whenever I want to skip I just tell myself that I could have a rest on Sunday. All I have to do is push myself until Sunday.0